just some thoughts before i turn the 21 and my whole life is changed.
ahahahjk
but seriously, some thoughts before my birthday..
- drink or not drink? it didn’t matter too much before, but as more people ask.. the more i question myself. it’s not even that big of a deal.
- on the ihop webcast they’re talking about healings they’re claiming for knees/ankles and stomachs (BOTH of which i have MAJOR issues with). my knee is tingling as we speak. COOL, maybe tomorrow on my birthday it’ll all be healed.
- i want more revelation of the father’s love.. i dont wont to grow any older without knowing what it means to be fully loved by the father
- “those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy. he who goes out weeping, carrying seed to sow, will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with him.” psalm 126:5-6.. me + praying = weeping. why? this is why.
- i love fruit, and FRUIT.
- it’s weird im not 18 anymore. (which was.. like three years ago)
- my knee is still tingling. PLEASE JESUS!!!!!
- i pray that at this age.. (just an excuse to use as a signifier) that i learn more of His will and purpose.. DTS options: Australia? South Africa? Hawaii? Canada? somewhere? Job? Missions? Non-profit? Office? Government? Teacher? who knows ……….. OH SNAP.. husband. blah.. i want to learn how to surrender these thingsssssss cause i can’t deal with it anymore.
- didn’t go through a crazy panic/anxiety thing for this birthday. may be i’ve come to terms with old age and the rising number of grey hairs. or not. or i have no energy to care. or i like it cause it means i’m moving on with life, learning to live and move and have my being in someone else, other than me.
- GOT FLOWERS IN THE MAIL FROM MY DEAR DEAR SISTER<3 she would do something like this. i love mail, i love flowers, i love HER! i got so giddy when it came, haven’t felt that in a while.. where your heart feels glad
[maybe one of my love languages is gifts.. ahaha i always thought it was a bit selfish, molah]
- i wonder what promises he will have for me, cause i want more….. if i could get anything for my birthday, it’d be “more” ahaha MORE & FIRE. lollllllllllll<3
bye 20 year old jennifer, twas a good year but 21 year old jennifer will have a better one.