i’m sitting here this morning.. and i feel like i have Gerontophobia.. the fear of growing older. i don’t want to believe i’m 22. did i even live out 21, 20, or 19?
Ohkay, maybe being a little melodramatic. But goodness, growing older gets harder and easier. Harder because you realize.. that these years have passed you, possibly the years have been left behind with mountains of regrets or unfulfilled hopes&dreams. But it gets easier because they just pass by. The day doesn’t slow down as much as before, they go as fast as any other day.
But right now, like RIGHT NOW.. i’m thinking about how God’s been faithful, how His heart was always FOR me. The days, months, years behind me, are just as they are.. behind me. I don’t know what’s ahead.. and some days.. just some days haha.. that’s fine. This moment now, where I dwell in the presence of God is more than enough. Engulfed in the pleasures of knowing Him, and the joy of being lovesick.
who would have thunk it.
Thanks friends! for trying to make it special as i push it away, but really do appreciate it. HAHA<3 off to buy things i don’t need, just cause it’s my birthday:)
Another year, thank You JESUS!!
