missing Him

What a GLORIOUSSSSS DAY it was. After weeks and weeks of rain, the sun came out to play! There’s been sun, but never without questioning it’s leaving us. But today.. today it came out to stay.

wow that was almost poetic. HAHA!

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I love wandering to different places in Korea alone. Headphones in and finding my way. It’s always interesting.. But what i love more than my nomadic-ness these days, is feeling like i’m home at the Kingdom First House of Prayer. I love going in there as a nobody to the people around me, but being KNOWN and HEARD by jesus as we enter into the heavenly courts, marching in with intercession. I also like that i don’t know anyone because i can sing as loud as i want! hahaha Today was gold; sitting there, praying for the children of N & S Korea to be raised up as Daniel’s and Joshua’s of this generation, praying for Somalia (random..hahaha), but most importantly giving worship to the King of Kings and pouring my love unto my Friend and Lover.

My heart has been becoming so tender because He’s been meeting me so tenderly this past week. I feel it becoming flesh, new and longing for more. And so deeper levels of love-sickness has come into this season.. to put it more simply.. I miss Him. I miss Jesus.

I remember the first time i started to miss Him. It was strange. haha i didn’t know what it was, but just a deeep saddness in my heart that couldn’t be satisfied. I thought i was going through depression again! The Lord and I stood in agreement that that was no longer apart of my identity, that I didn’t wear that anymore. I don’t know when or how, but my heart and my mind came into alignment. I was missing someone that I loved. I was mourning for Someone. Because my heart grew to love Him, Him being a REAL PERSON.. i started to miss Him.

(ohmy the prayer room at IHOP right now is so annointed) – “jesus we love your name! gathered to bring you praise..”

Not so long ago, my best friend and i were sitting in the car about to go to a friends apartment. And the Spirit of the Lord came and pierced our hearts. She had a revelation of the same thing i was experiencing.. so we mourned for the coming of Jesus together. We missed our friend, ohkay?! hahaha We wanted to see Him come for us.. so we could BE with Him. We wept. How humbling.

When I think of this picture, plus a bajillion other people on earth, crying out “COME LORD JESUS..” What would that do to God’s heart?

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